Last chemo...for a while

Friday was the last full blown chemo. Hard to believe that over the last twenty weeks I have had 16 treatments. I am so happy to be done but to tell you the truth, it doesn't feel any different. My guess is that on Friday when I don't have to go, then it will hit me. I am still feeling the fatigue and soreness that I feel every week after chemo but my spirits are higher because I know it will be the last time.

I had an appointment with the oncologist on Friday prior to my treatment. She is supportive of surgery on June 24th- the concern there was that she may want me to wait longer to increase my blood count. After I start radiation in July (I need to call and set that up tomorrow) then I can go back and start the Herceptin-only chemo. The nurses say that the treatment only lasts about an hour. So it will be a breeze compared to what I have been doing. So now I have 3 weeks prior to surgery to start feeling like myself again. The oncologist said that I should not focus on losing weight until after the surgery...I am not sure if I mentioned that I am in a wedding in two weeks- not going to be the cutest bridesmaid ever...the oncologist also mentioned in about 3 months when my hair is back, I will really start feeling myself. She forecast that by Christmas, I will feel like my old self. So basically between now and then, I will go through times when I am feeling back about myself. During those times, I will complain to my friends and loved ones and they will continue to support me. For that, I am super grateful. But the thing that I will miss the most about chemo being done is the 4 hours that Wes and I got to spend together. Some days we laughed and talked, others we watched patients and were grateful that I was doing as well as I was, and during others I slept and he read. He is the best husband anyone can hope for and I am grateful that he loves me.

Tomorrow, an update on Alexandra and carrots...